God couldn’t be everywhere; so he created mothers. This was something I had heard as a child and I didn’t pay much attention to, until I moved away from home and my parents because of work. It was then I realised the true meaning of that phrase.
Being an extremely pampered kid and the li’l one in the family, every demand of mine was fulfilled. My teenage days were spent with you parents and I remember, moving out of the house to pursue my graduation when I was 19.
It has been around six years since I’ve been staying away from both of you. And the journey from an immature cranky teenager to an ‘in process’ mature person, has been wonderful. Reason being, you have always supported me and made me believe that you are going to be with me, come what may. There were times when I was completely shattered and had no clue what was going on in my life. You were the ones who stood as the strong pillars.
During this journey, I have become a very strong person and the credit goes to you- Mumma, Papa. But I have some confessions to make to you today through this piece of writing. I might not be showing my emotions to you nor do I express my feelings but I love you both immensely. I am an emotionally fragile person, so I try to have a rough exterior. It is just that I do not want to be emotionally vulnerable.
I sometimes recall the days when I used to answer you back and when I think of that now I feel nothing but guilt. I am sorry for those times. Now, I crave to hear your scoldings but we are in two different cities and even when we talk over the phone, it’s just catching up about our day, etc. I wish to hear that. I crave for the delicious food you used to cook for me. I am sorry for the tantrums I used to throw when I used to get everything so easily. Daddy, I used to get angry when you were overprotective about me and still do, but I know that nobody cares for me as much as you do. I just want to apologize whenever I hurt you. Still, I am not going to express my feelings in person to you nor am I going to show you this write up because I do not want to feel emotionally weak in front of you.
Whenever I miss you both a lot, I do not call you but just lie down in my bed and weep. You have always taught me to be strong in every situation and face difficulties without fear. You guided me to be independent- mentally, emotionally and financially. I know I will not able to do as much as you both have done for me but this is for sure, I will definitely make you proud of me someday!
To all those who like me, have had to leave the comfort of home and the warmth of your parents, make sure you call your parents everyday and for those who are on the threshold of leaving home for their careers or higher studies, value the time you have with your parents.